jesus christ

i am having a really bad panic attack, over the silliest things. i think i just get a lot of anxiety out of a certain situation that's been pressing deeper and further. i sorta wanna eliminate it but it would take a while, a lot of other things need to happen before this particular thing can. i sometimes feel like the rhythm of my heartbeat really changes, it actually changes. i've never known the reason why your actual organ hurts when you're heartbroken but it sure as fuck does. this shit is probably just all in my head, like the way you forget to breathe. i know how to breathe, let's go, let's go.