i have been trying to scratch my latest itch. i've been painting my room and reading. i've been talking on the phone and hanging out with friends. i've been aggressive. i've been jealous. i have not been working. i haven't been passive. i haven't been sober. i haven't been creative. i haven't been relieved.
recently, i've been a little obsessed with loyalty. i'm not even sure what that means anymore. who has the desire to be loyal and what they think it means is very important, it's also important if you expect it and... what it means to you.
if you are aiming to be loyal i think that means telling the truth to the person you are trying to be loyal to, even if the truth is horrible and hard to say. i think being loyal is supporting someone when they've done something to disgust you. BUT at what point do you start being loyal to yourself? i think i've come to terms with the fact that i am not really loyal to my beliefs. this fucking punk rock philosophy that's been ingrained in my brain for the longest time, has me thinking how on earth did this happen? how on earth am I stuck in a car with dudes that can't stop saying "joto" and girls that can't stop saying "slut"?
on a completely different note. i was thinking about possibly making this blog about acting. you know, talking about neat actors and actresses. not hollywood assholes but really fantastic foreign and local stage and screen artists that I have the most respect for. and work that really floors me.
above the aforementioned is Alexander Skarsgard. He is from Sweden and has actually been acting for a crazy amount of time. I first noticed him in Generation Kill which i thought was so awesome and beautifully acted. the character was so developed in silent clips with intense expression. it's weird how that mini-series gets the point that there don't have to be fucking helicopters in the background 24/7 to make film significant and moving about war. THEN, i saw Alexander in True Blood as the 1000+ year old, nordic vampire named Eric Northman and his character is cold and totally badass. he is able to give a very sharp "FUCK YOU" with the raise of an eyebrow and even in the way he glances back and forth at people as they talk.
he is the second gentleman who speaks. that quick first line he has is so fucking articulate!
he's the vampire :p
